Sun, 04 Jan 1998

Adversity

All hope is dead

Hate crawls like maggots within a decaying corpse

Misery burns turbulent patterns in a turbulent brain

Innards filled with reptiles of anger and despair

Death looms bereft of sustenance and hope

Sad shrunken skeletons slowly sinking into oblivion

Faint weakened entreaties of a starving waif

Drippy skin hanging off skeletal frames

Hopelessness writ deep in sunken eyes

Fever burns the mother's brow

What can fill the empty intestines, answer the child's hunger pangs?

Tears have dried on withered cheeks, hollow tear ducts crackle emptily

Helpless to slake the infant's thirst, the heart breaks

Every door slammed, who gives a healing touch?

Where the salve for the sweltering sore, where a morsel to stave off death?

Anguish of hopelessness, hunger, pain,

Stretches every nerve, tears asunder entrails

Sunrise is only promise of more despair

The night dulls the agony, but only just

Death. Death alone is freedom

-- Alex Abraham

A Letter to My Mother

Today, I see you walking in the midst of storm and rain

Your fragile little body is shivering with cold

Yet, I hardly hear your sigh

Your tiny feet keep moving forward

despite numbness in your toes

I remember you told me the other day when we had all the time with us

You told me to keep walking in my path

although thorns were hurting my feet

and storm invading my blood vessels with fear

You told me that storm and thorns were like stars

They brightened life with different shades

Mother,

I wish I could erase lines of suffering in your face

and ask the brightest surgeon to perform facial laser surgery on you

Yet it won't help you to ease the pain

I long to put roses in your gray hair

and wash your tiny feet with jasmine

Still, it will belittle many years of your commitment as a mother to me

Mother

Your love, your courage and strength are infinite

Your serene face is forever drawn in my heart

My gratitude to you is as boundless as the horizon

It will never end and I truly love you

-- Permata Hamid, Surabaya, Dec. 22, 1997